some words...

Everyday seems promising, like there is a new thing to happen, a new and a happy thing, maybe that's why I feel I'm about to laugh, everywhere I'm, alone in my room like now, at university, at work, in a bus, in the metro, always there is a desire to smile, I take a look at the past, seems like I'm 50, various memories and still more to come…

Sometimes I feel very tired, exhausted from work and study, exhausted from being awake, but I can carry on because my road is too long still, and I'm making my early steps, and within the very step I'm in now I can see the other side, when I get deeper sailing it will be clearer…

Why sailing?! Why not going through a desert in my very own convoy?! I like sand dunes… and it has the sense of adventures; storms, labyrinths, endless skies…

I don't know why to sail, I don't like sea that much, I even don't know how to swim, I may like the view of a coastline, but to sail?! To challenge the possibility of sinking?! I know it won't be a pleasure cruise. Actually I don't know why to sail; I'm good at geography so I may like the voyage through oceans with berthing at harbors. I won't get bored… even if I smash my compass! I will be filled with peace, knowing that I'll get my other part soon; I'll draw a smile on her lovely face. How will she look like?! I like to hallucinate sometimes.

Can you embrace me?! Can you look into my eyes?! I know I'm asking for too much tonight but who else can bear me?!

Nothing more to say for tonight…